The next part: I am sorry not to have any more illustrations up yet, but have hope! they shall be up soon.
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“We’re here! Get up!” Wilhelm shook Sven, a steel hand acting with a steel voice. Sven got up, hitting his head of the ceiling as he got out of the armored vehicle. The men were standing beside the war machine in a row under a shed, waiting for their commander. Sven got out slowly. The rain had started, and as usual, would not stop for at least three weeks. Wilhelm came out after him and stood straight. His hand went up in a salute, and his boot clicked together. The soldiers did the same. Their weapons lay in a pile on the pavement, which was now beginning to soak up the rain. Sven slowly regained his posture, his eyes moving up and down the row. There were eleven, no; fourteen in total, counting the vehicle operators that were busy filling up the gas tanks and the captain. Every man’s face displayed a lethality that would make any normal man shiver at the mere sight, a professional perfection of inhuman measurement. I’m just like them, though Sven, but I’m not like them. Where were the men that hid behind those soldiers? Where was the man that hid in himself? It existed and was nonexistent simultaneously, sometimes a roaring behemoth and at others a mere whisper reminding him. His face turned slightly, his eyes now gazing beyond, at the dark storm that told the future. Never before had he felt so flustered. Never before had he felt so conscious, so alive.
“Comrades!” the captain’s voice was like a bullet piercing a calm night sky. “In line with the perfect execution of this morning’s operation, I will be giving each and every one of you a raise in wages from my own pocket! Every man will get an extra fifteen bank credits!” A wave of euphoria swept over the troops, a smile here, a grin over there. The army must give out terrible salaries these days, Sven mused. As a worker in the Ministry of Stability, Sven earned two hundred State Bank Credits a week, as the currency was called, or roughly ten thousand credits a year. The value of money had changed since Sven left the military, but when he was in service he got perhaps eighty credits a week, give or take. How much did soldiers make now? Sixty a week, seventy? It didn’t seem much to him, but fifteen credits could make a huge difference in a soldier’s life, he realized.
“Thank you!” all the soldiers shouted out in unison, their hands rising in salutes. Wilhelm repeated the action.
“You will receive your wages at the end of the week, like normal. Dismissed!” The men turned around and began to file out of the shed into the rain. The captain turned to Sven.
“Hey, how ‘bout a quick drink? I know a great bar not too far from here.” Sven was slightly taken aback by this offer. Even though Wilhelm was definitely of a much lower status than Sven, he had been his commanding officer during his time at the border and it seemed almost awkward that the man who used to give him orders and reprimand him for clumsiness was now inviting him for a friendly occasion.
“Yeah, sure. We’ve gotta be quick though, I’ve got to get out of here as soon as possible. Where are we, anyhow?” Wilhelm took a step forward. Despite his upbeat nature, Sven saw through him, through to the tired, stressed, man that he was. For the first time, Sven noticed that his breathing was heavy and uneven. For a moment Sven felt like he was talking to an old man.
“We’re in a military surplus compound. It’s annoying. Every time I take the men on a mission, I have to buy off the gateman. I hope he gets replaced by someone less greedy soon. Come, let’s go.” The two men entered the rain together.
“What about the guns and equipment?” Sven inquired. Wilhelm shrugged a little.
“Aw, maintenance will clean it up. Why worry?” Sven glanced across the landscape. There was, save the sky, not a sign of nature anywhere. The grey smog mixed with the clouds, hanging above the military-industrial complex like a specter, just lingering there, blotting out all real colour, the kind of look that depressed, tired men always saw. That was him. That was Wilhelm, that was Eukos, Jukör, that was who just about everyone he knew was. People shouldn’t be like this. People shouldn’t be in the smog and rain, with all these troubles constantly pressed down on them. Alas, who had a choice? Life was full of problems; life was about survival and getting what you could from the system and nothing else. We are alive, and that’s good enough.
The bar was small, being right next to a factory. It was a few bocks away from the light rail platform so by the time they got there both men were fairly wet. Wilhelm now wore a dark green greatcoat with the national insignia on the left arm, and gloves. The rain was like falling ice and each one tore into Sven’s coat like a shard of glass. He shivered.
“I see you’ve gotten weak after leaving us, Sev.” Wilhelm said, jokingly. “Can’t you take a little cold?” Sven wanted to say something, but decided it wasn’t worth it.
“Well,” said the captain. “Here we are.”
The interior of the bar was typically proletarian. Powerful, muscular men- the factory workers, gathered at tables chatting loudly while the bartenders worked in the back. A voice greeted Wilhelm as they entered.
“Look who’s here! If it isn’t the captain!” A mustached man in dirty grease-covered overalls raised his hand in greeting. He sat at a table with five other men, all of them equal in dirtiness and class. Instantly Sven felt out of place, enclosed, surrounded. He was of a different group, a different category.
“Hey, Fred, how’s it been going!?” Wilhelm responded in a similar fashion.
“How’s work?” The man grinned, his mustache twitching a little as he picked up his beer.
“Just fine, as always! My pay was cut from fifty-five to forty-eight a week, but it’s fine! My boss, as usual, had a good excuse for all of us, said the money the State supplied him for us was going down due to welfare benefits but I’m sure they know what’s best! And you? Still running, I see?” Sven suddenly felt a terrible sensation come over him. It came from all the men in the room, each one of them drowned him in it. What kind of person was the factory boss? How much did he make in a week? It was obvious that these workers were being cheated, be it by the State or some factory boss. Sven was a part of the State, he was one of those leeches who helped the poor get poorer and the rich get richer. Did this Fred have children? Most certainly, at least five, for a person like him. Did they ever starve? Obviously, probably all the time. Even at Sven’s level his children sometimes did not have enough to eat. His own wife was frail from slight malnutrition because she was always giving what should’ve been her food to the kids. He was overcome by guilt, which made the dark sky outsider even darker than before. At once he wanted suddenly to leave; his intuition was almost forcing him to. But he stayed.
“All’s well for me. What’s that you’re drinking?” Fred grabbed a bottle off the table and held it up for the military man to see.
“Gin. We’re all very happy today; the bar got a special shipment from down south last week. Usually only happens on New Year’s or Independence day, but this time it happened for no reason. ” He seemed so happy, Sven thought. Yet Sven happened to know where his “special” gin really came from.
“Nice. Maybe I’ll have some” said Wilhelm. Then he and Sven walked to the bartender and got their beverages. They sat down at a table in a corner that wasn’t quite as populated as the other side.
“It’s so dark today” Sven said as they sat down. “What time is it?”
“Noon. It’s those damn storm clouds.”
“You know that guy’s probably been swindled out of his money hundreds of times, right? By the State, by his boss, everyone.” Wilhelm stared at him again. The weariness in his eyes was ever so apparent, as if trying to negate out in the cheerfulness of the bar. His stonelike fingers picked up the drink he had ordered and began to take out the cork at the neck. Sven did the same, and almost simultaneously, they poured the liquids into their glasses and toasted one another. It seemed to be such a mechanized action, so unreal, with the warm chaos in the background forming a noise that eventually became persistent, like a dull roar. It was so…dreamlike, as if he had never really woken up that morning and was still in his cell, alone and cold. They drank.
“That’s guy’s been tricked, swindled probably hundreds of times.” Sven said, quite matter-of-factly.
“Haven’t we all?”
“That gin of his doesn’t come from the South. It’s brewed near a prison I was sent to once. The brewer just puts different labels on the gin. I met him.” His words were like a breeze coming and blowing the stench away, the very action of telling someone.
“He doesn’t think so. He’s happy about it, isn’t he? Just look at him. His boss is probably corrupt, as well. If the State really needed more money for the military just last week, then where are those new sniper rifles that were supposed to have arrived at military surplus three weeks ago? If there’s one type of person I hate, it’s the greedy middleman.”
“We’re all middlemen, aren’t we?” Jukör. Eukos. The officers of the Seventh Unit. Everyone. Himself. Even the factory worker probably stole spare parts from his workplace. The whole State was one big bureaucracy of corruption; bring all hope down with it into a dark well. When would they hit the bottom?
“I think the country’s getting ready for a war. I can feel it in the atmosphere around the higher-ups. They aren’t as relaxed, they’re much more tired than before. In the last few months my commanding officer has ordered me to conduct more and more exercises with my platoon, now almost twice a week. The same thing happened when we were sent to Sekjivk. And just last week, the regional command says our entire battalion is going to be redirected to Ekator. I tell you, the army’s planning a war soon.” Wilhelm was a smart man, Sven thought. He knew what was going on.
“That makes perfect sense. On the day I shot my boss, he said the Army wanted to go to war with the Gavon Republic within the month. How interesting that nobody’s told you about anything.” Sekjivk. To Sven, perhaps just a name, the “Sekjivk Military Aid Project,” but to Wilhelm, it must’ve been very, very real. So real that now he had a scar to remind him of that experience forever. The war , or “military aid,” had been a complete disaster. Thousands of Sungarian troops had been killed or wounded defending a puppet government against pro-Gavon rebels for about eight years up until the State finally realized nothing could be gained. Now, Wilhelm looked at Sven in disappointment, and with good reason.
“What!? They told you and not me? If there’s going to be a war, I’m the one whose life is gonna be on the line, why didn’t they tell us!?” He poured himself another glass of his drink and chugged it down. He gulped, and his face reddened slightly. Then he relaxed in his chair and put his hands behind his head.
“Damn it,” he continued, “so they want a war with the Gavon Republic now?” he shook his head. “Crazy. They’ve got better planes, more nukes, better training, the whole thing is stupid. If it was coming from anyone but you I would tell him to shove that right up his ass.” Maybe he really didn’t believe there could be a war. But Sven knew it was possible. Anything was possible, as long as the State wanted it done. No standards, whether human or practical, could make the State change its mind.
“Well, we always have a three to two advantage in nukes, if that counts for anything.” Sven sipped some more of his wine. The workers continued their brawl, oblivious.
“Yeah, we make things go nuclear and hope that we have more survivors than they do? I wonder how that’ll work.” He gulped down another glassful, the liquid visibly going down his throat. All of a sudden, Sven felt extremely tired. He yawned, and without thinking, knocked his half-filled glass over. The wine stained the white tablecloth a bright red, and Sven watched as it spread closer and closer, dripping over the edge of the table and into his lap. It was so fast, happening in a little over a second. Then the reflexes kicked in and caught the glass, preventing it from running off the table to its doom.
“Damn.” The single word came out of both their mouths simultaneously, like a toast. Wilhelm began to get up.
“Here, I’ll get something to clean it up with.” He went over to the bartender. Sven lay back in his chair, put his hands behind his head, and closed his eyes. What was the SCIO team doing now? They had probably figured out by now that he wasn’t in prison anymore. Were they hacking his computers in his apartment and office? They had definitely gotten to the one in his office by now, but his apartment? If Karin and his children had been able to escape, that would mean…did the SCIO even bother going to his home?
“Here’s a towel.” Wilhelm said, interrupting his thoughts. “Be a little more careful next time.” Sven took the towel, and tried to soak up as much of the wine as he could a small puddle had formed on his coat, and he tried to clean that up too. Then he had a sudden thought.
“Wilhelm, have you gotten married yet?” The captain’s head turned slightly and his eyes wavered a little.
“Not yet. It’s embarrassing, at my age. I should probably get together with someone when I get to Ekator.” At least Wilhelm had a more guilt-free job, Sven mused.
“What about that girl you were with at the border? What happened to her?” Wilhelm shook his head.
“We never got married. She got mad when I didn’t let her have an abortion so she lefty me with the baby, a little girl. I think I must’ve ruined her life. Maybe I shouldn’t try to mess around with anyone.” For a second that seemed awkward, coming from such a man as Wilhelm. Then again, it was perfectly possible that he was distorting the truth. Did that experience bother him? What had happened in Sekjivk? Did whatever happened there bother this iron-plated man?
“Oh. I see. Hey, when are you leaving for Ekator?” Sven wanted to pour himself another glass, but decided against it. The wine wasn’t that good. It made him somewhat nauseous.
“In two days. I’m going with my official battalion, but the Colonel says he’ll make sure I get my squad back when we get there. Man, it pisses me off how they don’t even tell us what’s going on!” He hit the table with a fist, which then slowly receded as he took control of his temper.
“How’s your wife?” Sven had once told him about Karin.
“She’s in Zyuknoslovia with the kids now. I’m going to try to get there as well.”
“I thought you only had one kid.”
“Sorry, I forgot to explain. We had two sons after we came back here.”
“I’m jealous. It’s a shame; I’m already thirty-five. Maybe it’s too late now.”
“Well, you still have your daughter, don’t you?”
“Yeah, but it’s terrible. She goes hungry all the time, and to make things worse she doesn’t do well in school. I don’t know what I’ll do when I get too old to stay in active service. I fear for her. What if I get killed in battle or arrested for being a Syemska soldier? What kind of job can she get if she doesn’t get into university? She’s weak, so I don’t even think the army will be able to get her a job.” No one can get a decent job without university education, Sven thought. People who couldn’t get in simply got assigned by the State to do manual labor, such as farming or factory work. And when there were no jobs, they starved and died, while corrupt officials and anyone who could make off with the most loot got richer and richer. As long as you had money, anything could be done.
“Maybe the State can get her a job.” Sven said, futilely.
“Not a chance. Not since the so-called ‘economic reforms.’ I’m sure those were made just so the State wouldn’t have to hire so many workers.”
“But taxes haven’t gone down a bit. Every single official I know is corrupt, I’m sure. They take most of the money reserved for social services and keep it for themselves. I’ve heard them brag about how much they could get during ‘overtime.’ I didn’t think of it much before, but now it makes me sick.”
“I know. But that’s the way it works, right? Not like we can do much about the State.” He finished what was left in his bottle and stood up.
“Well, everything will work itself out somehow, I won’t worry about it too much. If you didn’t act so rashly, you wouldn’t have much of a problem, either.” A brief moment of anger came over Sven, but was gone the moment it came. How could Wilhelm judge him? Then again, how could he judge Wilhelm? He had never fought in a war. The people he killed were almost always unarmed. It was then that Sven realized that, all his life, he had had the upper hand.
“Okay, then. I really have to get going, or I’m in trouble.” Sven got up. “Let’s go.” Their eyes met briefly as they walked away from the table, and Sven took out some money and handed it to his former commanding officer. The stoic grey eyes, the scar, the weariness in his face, they had burned their way into him. From then on, they would be a part of him, undying in memory.
“Farewell.” The voice said. It lingered for awhile, disappearing into nothingness.
Wilhelm was gone, now a mere shadow in the face of the pouring rain. Sven started out the door, and his foot kicked something. It was an envelope, with a small thin object inside it, about the same shape and size of a credit card. He took it out. It was a military clearance card that one would use to open a door. Sven smiled, and pocketed it. Then he, too, disappeared into the downpour.
The street Sven lived on was overshadowed by a series of state-owned apartment complexes, of the more preferable type. An hour after noon, there was still no sign whatsoever of even the two major suns. The entire sky had been covered by the apocalyptic black clouds. Occasionally thunder could be heard, the result of lightening fighting to escape the many layers of that which brought the blessing of the crops.
As Sven waked up to his home staircase by staircase, he would look at the clouds in both scorn and admiration. He must’ve been thoroughly soaked, that was for sure. Did that annoy him? Did it matter? But the ability to almost entirely blot out three suns, he thought, fascinated him. He looked around at the metropolis. It was almost as though night had fallen. No, it wasn’t completely like that. There were still a few rays of sunlight, pitifully trying to surpass the dark façade. But what if the clouds never went away, and the crops never sprouted? Would it still be worth his admiration? He had never really thought of it that way, he realized.
Once, twenty-five years ago, the storm cleared late, about three weeks later than the normal period. Sven remembered the people all in panic, the routine military patrols around the city increasing. He remembered not knowing why he was afraid, but being afraid anyway. Later on, when he was older, he learned that there was a famine that year, and that the State finally made a decision to clear the clouds by shooting a missile armed with a tactical nuclear warhead at them, thus causing their dissipation. Sven remembered the fright in the voices of the newscasters, the images of the missile on its way, the resulting power blackout from the EMP blast, the mighty blow of the State’s victory over nature.
That was earliest memory he had remembered, Sven realized.
Sven pauses to look over the city
Lights flicked on and the apartment was made light. Sven took out the package sent by Eukos and set it on the table. The apartment had not been touched, he thought. But he still had to be cautious. Was it a trap, to make him feel secure? Possibly. He went to the wardrobe in his room and looked for the hidden supply of money that he stored for emergencies. It was gone. At first, fear gripped his heart, but logic told him that Karin had taken it. He took off his uniform, and changed into his most durable trousers and a greatcoat, given to him by the military. He took off all the badges and pins from his other coat and put then in his pocket, and then looked at his room. Everything was there, but it was somehow… empty. Then he noticed a problem. A photo, which previously hung from the wall, was gone. It was the only picture of his entire family that he had at home. Never before had he wished he could look at it as he did now. The other photo was lost forever, lost in his office deep within the Ministry.
At 1426 hours, Sven had all his necessities in a knapsack. He sat down at the dining table, and looked through the contents of Eukos’ package. He took out the opened letter, re-read it, and then burned it with a silver lighter that he had never used until now. He ripped apart the package, hastily removing the paper. A gun magazine fell out. It hit the table with a gong-like sound, and then proceeded to hit Sven’s foot. A sharp, painful sensation hit him as he recovered his weapon from the package. He found two more full clips, and loaded the gun. Twenty-four shots in all, eight in each clip. Enough to turn 6752 into 6776. Oh, right. There was Jukör as well. It would be 6777, wouldn’t it?
It was not the guilt that troubled him. It was the lack of it. No instinct, no gut feeling, to remind him that what he had done for years was wrong. He got up, went to a corner, and picked up a small laptop computer that was connected to the wall. He used the device often, a reminder that even when he was at home, that part of him belonged to the State. From here he could do almost anything he did at his office- check State records, go through archives, and order transportation… Sven, as an officer of the State, had the privilege of using his so-called “emergency-powers,” or authorization for him to do a number of things, including using pubic transit without cost. For emergencies. No, Sven thought, for anything. “Emergency” was really just an adjective, wasn’t it? Everyone Sven knew from the SPO never paid the light rail fares. It would be stupid to.
Sven logged in with his administrative account. He noticed that he had more options to choose from, beyond those of a major. So the promotion ceremony was really just ceremonial, eh? He could now give orders to those of lower rank without permission, it seemed, as well as gain access to heavy weaponry. Instinctively, he smiled slightly. What else was there… he looked… emergency use of State funds? He scrolled down to read the description:
“This power, meant for emergencies, entitles those of a Colonel Third Class rank or higher to a maximum of 7500 State credits for use. It is, however, required that any usage of these funds be reported to a superior by a time not exceeding a month after utilization, or a suspension process will follow. For more details, see the Complete Paramilitary Book of Law Version 13, Article 18 Section 3: Regarding Police Use of State Funds.”
But Sven, like everyone, knew. Only the first sentence mattered. It was nothing but an unnecessary risk for the purposely-underpowered anti-corruption police to actually track down those who disobeyed the rule. There were more important things for them to worry about. Namely, their jobs, and in some cases, their lives. The last two sentences really should’ve said something like this: “It is, however, okay for you to take as much money as you like, provided that you know a lot of high-ranking officials, and you need not give it back. Ever. What ‘Law Book?’ Oh, you mean that? How did you get this rank in the first place? Go back to your-”
Sven’s brain stopped in its tracks. He needed to concentrate. Where was the damn transit map? Stupid website. Why did they always have to change its layout? Ah, here it was! A map of all the mass transit movement in real time showed up before his eyes, every last rail car brought up on the screen. It was like being God, watching His subjects from the sky. He zoomed in on his apartment complex, and began going over all the streetcars in the vicinity. What let him do it? Was it simply a computer network hooked into all the trains? Or a satellite in the far reaches of space? Or perhaps even police officers stationed on every car, constantly putting their positions into the system? He had found it. He reserved a seat on a train, and sat back, satisfied. But he wasn’t finished. He checked the latest news from Unit Seven. What project was going on now? He clicked, and read. His eyes widened in expected shock as he whispered something to himself. But it didn’t matter. He needed to go.
Halfway across the urban expanse a screen flickered. Someone else had also found what he wanted. He clicked a mouse, typed a few words, and extended his presence across the entire city.
“Sven, your gun was meant for eight, not seven. As a State officer, you’ve failed.”
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4500 words in one post! I think that's too much, so I'll limit it next time.